When you look at these photos, you see a girl who has gained weight. Some may even assume that I looked better before, and ‘let myself go’ by regaining weight.
When I look at these photos I see someone who has came so damn far. Someone who has completely changed her mindset, her life and the way she thinks and feels about herself. I see the girl on the left, who was going through a lot of troubles and struggling with her self image. A girl who was starving, who would restrict foods and practiced extreme calorie restriction. A girl who would breakdown after eating a meal that was over 300 calories. A girl who was losing her hair, her mind and her sanity. I went from one unhealthy extreme to the next. This is the awful influence of “thinspo” in action. It fueled my self hatred. It made me tear myself apart little by little. For those of you who declare that thinspo and the promoting of these restrictive and dangerous diets has no real effect on people, you’re 100% wrong. It changed my whole perception and outlook on myself. It is incredibly upsetting that I considered myself “fat” in the left photo when it was taken. I thought I was still “too big” and still hadn’t lost enough weight. I still wanted to lose at least 20 pounds. It actually scares me to think back on all of this.
Now I see myself as an entirely new person. A girl who is confident, is healthy and has balance in her life. Someone who is finally at peace and no longer struggles with the constant battles that once went on in her mind.
I am healthier and stronger than ever. My size and weight is not and has never been relative to my health; nor my worth or beauty. It took me forever to finally realize that. It took me so long to understand that being skinny and having a flat stomach and all of that is not my purpose here in life.
I was going down a terrible and dangerous path. I am so thankful that I have changed for the better and that I became aware of what I was doing to myself. I truly hope that if any of you are experiencing something similar you decide to reevaluate what you’re doing. I know so many of you silently struggle with this sort of thing. I want people to take something from this post.Not just see it as another ‘before and after’. Being as skinny as possible should not be your priority. Do not put that in front of your health and mental well being.
This girl is amazing
Sounds like a quitter to me.
Oh yeah well, I did quit. I quit starving myself and stopped trying to survive on 400 calories a day. I quit destroying my mental and physical health. I quit crying for days and locking myself in my room for being “fat”. I quit excluding myself from the things I enjoyed in life. I quit trying to be as skinny as possible, and began trying to overcome a hardship. So yeah I guess I am a fucking quitter. I woke up and realized the immense harm I was causing myself and began making the right choices to benefit my health.. and if that somehow is a bad thing to some sorry unsympathetic internet nobody then tough shit right. :) Keep being bitter though while I celebrate success.
do you ever just sit around and think I’m in my twenties.
told you not to come round here set trippin and shit
Juror 8: I just want to talk.
Juror 7: Well, what’s there to talk about? Eleven men in here think he’s guilty. No one had to think about it twice except you.
Juror 10: I want to ask you something: do you believe his [the accused] story?
Juror 8: I don’t know whether I believe it or not - maybe I don’t.
Juror 7: So how come you vote not guilty?
Juror 8: Well, there were eleven votes for guilty. It’s not easy to raise my hand and send a boy off to die without talking about it first.
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He’s so dreamy…